This is day 9 of the Write 31 days October challenge. I’m using Five Minute Friday‘s one word prompts this year and tying my posts to a hymn of the Christian faith. For the rest of my posts click on the landing page. Today’s word is plan.
I know I’m not alone. Even those who look like their lives are perfect struggle. Whether it’s infidelity, divorce, the loss of a loved one, alcohol, drugs, a wayward child or something else, even something smallish. Our future rarely go as we plan.
It’s easy to get mad and blame people or circumstances or even God but that’s not what we should do. We don’t always understand what God is doing in our lives. He doesn’t give us a magic ball so we can see our future. In fact, if we could see our future it might scare us. If we could see our future we probably wouldn’t want to live it. It would probably overwhelm us if we could see our future.
That is why God’s plan for us is better than any plan we could ever make for ourselves.
It’s been nearly a year since the church we had called home for 8 years turned their back on us when we stood up against unrepentant sin. In January, I received a letter from my mother that I’m certain in her mind was somehow meant to try to reconcile our horrible relationship. It didn’t. In fact it solidified in my mind that I would never have a relationship with her. Years of a relationship with my in-laws that was spiraling out of control came to a crossroads in March. As of yet, nothing has been reconciled with any of these situations. In all honestly, we’ve struggled through a magnitude of pain. We’ve tried every biblical way to reconcile each of these situations with no success. We’ve gone through some dark places this past year, but we’ve never given up on God. And God has never given up on us. In fact we couldn’t have faced these days without him.
Before this, many other things in our life did not go as we planned.
Mission Field? Nope
Marriage and Family therapy degrees? Nope.
Birthing children? Nope (not in my womb anyway).
But you know what? Those things that happened years ago. Those things that didn’t go as planned? We can look back and see some of God’s purpose in them.
I’ve never given birth to a child, but we have 4 children. If God had not ordained our steps out of Texas and the MFT program Shane and I were enrolled in when He did, I’m certain we would not have 2 of those children. I can’t imagine our life without them.
23 years ago our doctrinal beliefs were not as clear as they are today. If Shane had been a preacher or evangelist in that denomination, what would have happened?
Would the best thing for our family to have been on a mission field? Or in a church? Apparently not because that’s not the life God has given us to this date.
Why have the events of the past year occurred the way they did? I don’t know. I could go into the ways we’ve tried to reconcile all of them. Some for many, many years, but that honestly doesn’t matter. What matters is Him. What matters is our faithfulness to the One who makes the better plan.
Will it be easy? No! Rarely will it be easy to let go of our ways for his. But oh it’s so much easier than the alternative.
What matters is knowing that someday we’ll look back and have some understanding to the why.
God sent His son, they called Him, Jesus;
He came to love, heal and forgive;
He lived and died to buy my pardon,
An empty grave is there to prove my Savior lives!
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone,
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!
How sweet to hold a newborn baby,
And feel the pride and joy he brings;
But greater still the calm assurance:
This child can face uncertain days because He Lives!
And then one day, I’ll cross the river,
I’ll fight life’s final war with pain;
And then, as death gives way to victory,
I’ll see the lights of glory and I’ll know He lives!